I'm reading this amazing book that was recommended to me from a dear friend. It's called In A Pit With A Lion On A Snowy Day. I am on Chapter 4 and it is rocking. my. world! It is tackling all of the issues I am currently experiencing.
Let me explain...this week has been a bit of an emotional rollercoaster. I've had my highs and my lows, but what it really boils down to is I have been putting the God I know to be faithful and love in box. #ihatewhenIdothis!!!! I allowed my "mental lions" where the job front is concerned get to me and destroy what I know to be true.
All week I felt like job hunting had become the never ending task...To be quite frank, it was becoming down right miserable. I felt like I was doing the same thing every day....getting on multiple sites, reading job descriptions, tweaking my cover letter to fit the description, bolding different duties on my resume' that would stand out to employers, I'd hit send....And I get NOTHING in return. It was VERY frustrating!
And in my frustration EVERYTHING seemed worse.
The thing is...I know I am supposed to be here. I absolutely LOVE it here, I don't want to leave, and I know God brought me here for a reason, but if I'm being real...I couldn't help but be like "OK God, I'm here, I've been restless for 8 months, and I have had NO normalcy for a month, I'm ready to be used, I'm available and open to whatever it is you have for me...show me...reveal to me what your plans are for me. I'm going insane..."
So needless to say, God is stretching me---BIG TIME! It's been difficult, but beautiful . He's constantly showing me that I need to un-learn a lot of my reactions and learn from Him.
I'm being reminded that the same God that brought me here has a plan and something WILL work out. Therefore, I REFUSE-here me-I REFUSE to let the enemy try to feed me anymore lies of fear and discouragement!!!
God is SO good. He thrives on what we deem "impossible ," but with God we know ALL things are possible. When we get to that place where we think there is just absolutley no way something can work out, He comes in and miraculously takes care of every detail and blows us away. Our testimonies become stronger and His name is edified more.
So on that note, I am full of joy and trust that God is going to provide. I'm going to keep pushing on ward, praying, reading scripture and this fantastic book while enjoying the many blessings God gives me everyday...
As far as the highs this week...I did some really cool and fun things. A few times this week I found myself at my max and had to take a break from job hunting because it was all becoming too much. I had the privillege of exploring the city some more, a few play days with friends, and celebrating my roomie Britt's life.
As always, I'll leave you with some pics...
"Nobody better lay a finger on our butterfingers!!!" *insert Bart Simpson voice* The weather in Chicago has been amazing this week. Jeremiah and I decided to have a picnic in Millenium Park on Wednesday. We had a good time.
We went to the MOTHER of all Macy's department stores. I stood in the same spot and took a picture of what was below me and above me. It's CRAZY big with lots of pretty things. Be proud of me that I walked out without purchasing anything.

I stood on the glass ledge at the Sears Tower (i'm going to be a true Chicagoan and call it that--yes, I am aware its now called the Willis Tower). It was crazy! I am not afraid of heights, but it took me 20 minutes to step on the glass. Something about standing on glass was a little scary. The view was amazing and such an adrenaline rush! I was scared to look down, but I did! Look how small those cars are?!!!!

Celebrating my sweet Roomie Britt's b-day by having lunch outside at Sultan's Market. OMG it is wonderful and I am sure it will becomes one of my favs. It's crazy cheap and insanely delicious. I had the Chicken Schwerma Pita. It had spicy chicken, onions, hummus and jerusalem salad (fresh diced cucumbers). So good!!!

I hate this picture. I need a haircut and I am pastey...Anyways, at Sultan's Market they had a drink called Aloe. Yes folks, it is what it is. I'm not afraid of much, so I decided to try it. Just as I took a sip, Tommy says "Is that floating pieces of aloe in there?" I conveniently happened to get a large piece of floating aloe. The texture not so much, but the drink was actually pretty good. Very refreshing and tasted a lot like gatorade. (I know Audra is cringing)

After lunch, we decided to take an afternoon stroll through Wicker Park and the Ukranian Village. Guess who's house this used to be? Ever heard of a little band called the Smashing Pumpkins? Well, this was lead singer Billy Corgan's house. He no longer lives there, but I think he left a lot of things behind. I didn't post it, but right inside the glass door there was a tall, stuffed, dragon-like butler replica holding up a tray. Weird...
A side view from the house. I had to climb up a gate, so sorry for the tree. Can you tell from the glass inspired wall that this house has very 1990's rockstar feel?!
Me and my friend jess being silly. We went to the Fizz Bar & Pub in Lincoln Park to watch Chicago's Bye Bye Liver, an interactive drinking play. It was funny, but I had more laughs with Jess after the show. Not really sure that it's worth $20 bucks.
Well, I better get back to the good ol' job hunt. Oh what fun :) I hope you all are doing well. I love and miss you all...
xoxox
-Ms. H